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Sunday, June 21, 2015

At least it's only a migraine?

I may need to wear spectacles.

I don't want to, because I have migraines. And I get migraines when there are things on my face (the reason why I hate 3D movies and its annoying glasses). But I have been working non-stop since last week, that my vision is starting to blur.

I used to be very proud of it. I mean, I usually can read something far away before anybody can. Now I am having a hard time even reading small prints. (Mungkin sebab tu Tuhan tarik kebolehan tu. Bongkak nak mampos).

But I am also having headaches now because of it. Yesterday, I list down all my translation work and I realised that I have translated over 40 scripts this month. And it's not even near the end of June! That must have taken its toll on my eyes, man.

So, that's my predicament. Let's say if I do have to wear one, it's either having a migraine for wearing spectacles, or having headaches by not wearing one. It's like another one of my issue. That is, I will get a headache if I fell asleep at 4pm, and I will get a headache if I restrain myself from falling asleep. Either way, I will end up with a headache. (I say headache, because migraine is a whole other thing).

What a lousy first world problem that is.

I found this aurvey from the website migrainemonologues.

30 Things About My Migraine You May Not Know
(I will just answer 26, because answering too many questions gives me migraines)

1. The illness I live with is: Migraine. (and mild asthma... still recovering from rhinitis. I am a walking diseased head. But since we're talking about migraines, let's just stick to that, eyh?)

2.  I was diagnosed with it in the year: I can't remember. I think it was back when I went for t=full medical check-up for my university

3. But I had symptoms since: 1998. I think living in SMKAKS did it for me. I love my school, but damn I was stressed out by living a very disciplined life. Okay, that's not it. I fell down a small waterfall during a school trip, and banged my head on the rocks.

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Trying to explain to people that their headache and my migraine are two different things. If you can work while having a headache, it's just a headache, silly.

5. Most people assume: I am being a baby when I said I can't function sometimes because of it. Don't you just want to stab them repeatedly when they say that, eyh?

6. The hardest part about mornings are: Making sure that I slept comfortably on my pillow the night before, or ta-da... bad mood all day long. 

7. My favorite medical TV show is: House. Because he takes Vicodin. Life would be much better with Vicodin.

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: I can live without a gadget. Gadgets are migraine triggers.

9. The hardest part about nights are: Not being able to sleep because of the migraine. Duh!

10. Each day I take: I believe in the 'suffer while you can'. If not, then take painkillers. Don't take more than six a day if you want to live long.

11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Bekam. Bekam is awesome. Bekam is life!

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: an invisible one. I am living with one already, so that means I can cope with it, even when I feel like I can't cope with it.

13. Regarding working and career: That's why being a freelancer/novelist is the best job for me.

14. People would be surprised to know: sometimes I prefer rolling in pain than going out with people who are a pain in the ass. Oh, and lemon-scented fragrance worsens it every time. I hate people with lemon-scented perfume.

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: I have to live with it and can't enjoy what other people can enjoy. Like crazy roller coaster rides. I used to love crazy roller coaster rides. But now, even Universal Studios' Transformer ride can trigger my migraine. 

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: withstanding pain without trying to kill people around me.

17. The commercials about my illness: it doesn't exist in Malaysia. For headaches, maybe.

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: roller coasters.

19. It was really hard to have to give up: Coffee.

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Nothing. My hobbies are not the type of things that induce migraines. Taking care of cats and reading are very innocent hobbies

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: heck, roller coasters 24 hours!

22. My illness has taught me: that I can laugh about it.... that is when I am not rolling in pain.

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: "ala, makan jela ubat..."

24. But I love it when people: understands.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: none. More like, "At least it's not death." - Me.

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: Welcome to the club, where healthy people irks you

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